banned

I am a liar. I lie to people. I manipulate. I tell people that I have everything together but underneath it all I'm crumbling. One would look at me and see that I am the strongest, most capable, level-headed, wisest person he/she knows but inside I am screaming. I'm angry that I'm screaming for help and nobody can hear me. I have lied myself here. I pray that someone will see through me, cut away the bull-****, step in, and hug me. I want to fall asleep with someone hugging me. I'm so far away from everyone. I'm so alone here.
I'm weak.
I'm scared things will be like this forever.
I'm scared nobody will ever hug me again.
I'm scared of sleeping alone tonight again.
I'm scared of the lonely tomorrow.
Hold me until I'm asleep. Please.
Love me.
Know me.
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